What does the evil look like? Is it someone leather-faced, smelling like decayed teeth and low-income household?
Dave was handsome, highly educated, and wealthy; warm, smiley and polite.
Intimacy with him felt like heaven, he was gentle, affectionate, and caring. “I hug you, and you smile, one day I will see you smiling all the time. It will make me happy.” He had a great body, nicely smelling bed-linen, huge master bedroom, and high-quality home sound system.
– What kind of music does my Vixen want?
– Can we do Mozart?
– You need something relaxing, what about meditation music?
– Ok, – I shrugged my shoulders and went into the bathroom, being intimate with him felt relaxing. Sex was not merely joyful or fun, it was spectacular, phenomenal, magical, fantastic.
– I need to take you shopping, my Vixen needs new dresses.
– Maybe next time? I gotta pick up my kid from his daycare.
– No, we will go now, I will choose, since I am paying. Your facial expression…. It has changed, that’s funny…
He had a great taste, the outfit he bought looked awesome. I was thankful and quiet. He did not want me to speak unless he expected answers to his questions.
– Talking makes you anxious, dear, you get into your shitty moods that make you unhappy. I want you happy, this is my goal, princess, to make you happy.
– Yeah, but I just wanted…
– Shh … silly, – he covered my mouth with his hand, – When I speak, you listen, ok?
Physical closeness was awesome, simply awesome, he was very expressive and emotional; I was touched, I kept breaking into tears, he liked it. – There is nothing wrong about showing your feelings, Vixen. You are certainly allowed to do it around me. You gotta read good books, spiritual literature. It will help you grow and become a better person. You can’t be a sugar baby all your life.
I found Seroquel and an empty Tequila bottle on one of his book shelves behind Luke Rhinehart and Teachings of the Buddha. – I have zero tolerance for alcohol. I can’t be around someone who drinks, Dave.
– One of my friends left the bottle here, he stopped by yesterday, we meditated.
– Are you taking anti-psychotic meds with alcohol?
– I took half a pill, the first time in ten years, I stopped drinking long time ago. You gotta relax and stop your crazy thinking, I feel bad when I see you suffering, luv.
– Why did you take it?
– My ex stopped by, she is horrible, the most negative person in the world, she tried to commit suicide several times when we were together. I was anxious all night after that, the pill helped me sleep.
– I thought it is your ex-girlfriend who tried to kill herself.
– My ex-wife was also crazy, she is a very miserable person, she needs help. I had back luck with women in the past. You are the angel Vixen, I am blessed to have you in my life.
Sex was mind-blowing, I left his house feeling the happiest person in the world that night. He constantly wanted me around. He paid for my son’s sitter and for the hours I missed work to be with him. – You are working too much, it makes no sense, even my cleaners do better financially, honey. You need to change your career. I do not want my princess to stress twenty-four hours a day. It makes me sad to watch you suffer.
– I will end up losing my job if I continue taking time off. I can’t afford it, I need to feed my son.
– I will take care of you both. Trust me, you will never be homeless and hungry.
– I can take vacation later, maybe a couple of months from now?
– Now, – suddenly his smile froze, – I will take care of everything: flights, hotels, food, shopping… I want you to start packing now. Your son can go with us, I love kids.
– I can’t.
– Yes, you can, – he grabbed me by the shoulders and started shaking. My head hit the cupboard door. I screamed, he quickly released the grip and gave me a hug. – Are you ok my dear?
I saw blood on the light-wood cupboard door and concern in his dark eyes as he was gently checking my head.– Just a tiny scratch, nothing serious, love.
– I may need to see a doctor. I hit my temple.
– They will rip you off and do nothing. I owned several medical practices, people there are morons. You should not trust them. I will take care of you.
– I need to go.
– You need to stop talking now. – The sudden change in his voice was frightening.
That afternoon was the first time I did not leave his house mesmerized by his charm and the way he used his penis. The evil was there caring and smiling, carefully drying my skin with a soft towel after a bath and holding hands while sleeping. The evil was there, slowly but surely cuffing me to the 2-million dollar home with substance abuse and mental health issues. The evil was there gently destroying the identity through manipulation and control slowly leading others to suicidal ideation. The evil had the face of an upper class guy with refined manners, hard cock, and fat banking accounts.
It took time to finally see the dirty truth inside the fancy packaging box.